The one thing that keeps me up at night is my thoughts. My thoughts about tomorrow and the future all seem to come rushing to me when I try to sleep.
It could be 9pm or 5am when I am trying to sleep and the minute I close my eyes my mind starts to run. Most nights I am exhausted when I lay down and the second my mind starts to race I am wide awake.
The worst thoughts that I have are the ones of losing the people I love. The thought of one day losing my parents haunts me at night sometimes.
Another big one is the thought of school and financial status. I know that I should be living in the moment, but sometimes at night, all I can think about is what my future might have in store for me.
A lot of times I have to write in a journal so I can get things off of my mind so I can put my mind to rest for a little bit. Sometimes that works, but other times my mind either continues to race about what I had been thinking about previously or a new thought pops into my mind.
A lot of times good ideas come to my head late at night when my mind is swarming and a lot of good writing material comes to my head.
There are positives and negatives to staying up at night with the thoughts. A positive is that good idea’s come to my head a lot, but a consequence to that is sometimes I do not get much sleep due to being up so late.
My mind is the main source of what keeps me up at night and it is a blessing and a curse all in one.