For day one, of this 31 day challenge, I thought this would be a perfect place to start.
The past two years were crazy and I changed a tramendous amount in that time.
I was in my first semester of college and going through a lot of change. I wasn’t too far from home, but it was all a new environment to me and I couldn’t just walk into another room to talk to my mom about something if I needed to anymore.
I had an absolutely amazing roommate, who had become my best friend instantly.
I was in my fourth year of a horrible relationship. It was young love that was not meant to be. There was a lack of trust, abuse, and no love anymore. I knew I needed to get out of it and after a week of crying, yelling, and begging for change I finally decided what was best for me and that was to leave. My roommate really helped me through this breakup and from that moment on I felt the storm clear and the rainbow form.
I finally saw the world as more colorful and in a different, more beautiful light.
I started to find myself.
For years I was living to impress someone who only broke me down and never helped to build me. I had all winter break to get myself together and during that time I also realized that even the closest of friends will stab you in the back even if it is just for a boy. So during break I rid myself of many toxic people in my life and went back to school a new person.
I was able to go out and have fun and not be told what I was allowed and not allowed to do. I also had no worries about being hurt by anyone because I had rid my life of all the people who were doing the hurting.
I started to do what I wanted to do I got some piercings and my first tattoo.
That summer was like any other summer, I hungout with some friends and worked.
When I got back to school I knew that my sophomore year was going to be different and it was.
My roommate from the year before had left and I was on my own. My two friends, who are very sociable, helped me get out of my comfort zone and start making friends. The one friend even helped me in falling in love, which none of us would have ever expected.
I went out more and made more friends. Since I didn’t have anyone controlling me I did not have to tell anyone where I was going and who I was with. I was able, for the first time in years, to do whatever I wanted to do and not be told I was wrong for it.
I met some great people and some people that only helped to make great memories, but I could not bring along while I grow.
This past summer I met one of the greatest blessings in my life. This friend and I clicked the day we started working together and became instant best friends, and yes I believe in having more than one best friend.
She helped to make this summer absolutely amazing helping in dying my hair, going along with my to get another piercing, and even got another tattoo with me.
During this summer, I had a lot of low points and I finally hit another breaking point, but I had absolutely amazing people by my side helping me pick myself back up.
In these past two years, I had left love behind, swore off dating, but ran right into the man I believe is my soulmate. I have cut out toxic people in my life and have gained absolutely beautiful friendships. I have hit rock bottom, but was able to rebuild myself. I have seen the beauty of family and friends being in love and getting married. I have witnessed a birth and the instant love of a mother. I started my own blog and even cut my hair real short. I have learned to control my anxiety more and be more fearless. I have stood up for myself when people thought they could walk all over me.
I have chosen happiness. I have chosen to love myself before anyone else.
I have become a better woman and I am only continuing to grow.
Everything has changed and yet, I am more me than I’ve ever been. ~Iain Thomas